I have been really bad at keeping up with this blog lately.
Yesterday was my sister’s sixteenth birthday. Unlike a lot of sixteen year olds, Hannah wanted the opposite of a huge sweet sixteen bash and we had a small family dinner at my Nana’s place which was nice. She got a phone and the promise of trying to get her a car, as well as two cakes (one from us and one from her friend Sara)!
Today my Mom, sister and I went house hunting for a new rental house since we’re moving out of our current one. It was weird looking at houses and imagining myself in them, and there weren’t any that I completely loved. While I don’t really need a bedroom at home anymore, a smaller house for my mom, sister and brother means having to put my stuff in storage, which would just be a hassle and I would have nowhere to stay when I come home.
Aside from my trip to LA, I expect the next few weeks will be filled with more house hunting, moving, and doctors appointments up here and Glendale.
Instagram Diary : 05/17/13 - 05/24/13
"Why Being Single is Completely Awesome"
My current state of being, from Thought Catalog (as usual).
Being single used to mean that you were an unwanted, pitied spinster. It used to mean that you were just getting by until you found someone to settle down with, but I don’t think that’s the case anymore. Being single now means that you’re independent and have goals and that you care enough about your life to not just settle for whoever comes along, but to really get out there and experience different kinds of people and make sure you’re spending your life the way you want to. Being single doesn’t necessarily disregard the importance of companionship and love. It didn’t before and it still doesn’t. Single people surround themselves with friends and family and dates and lovers, but they also know that being in a relationship is not the end-all-be-all of your awesomeness. It’s wonderful if its something you have, but it’s not necessary. There are so many other things to be learned and experienced in your life, and that’s only one reason that being single is completely awesome. Here are a few others:
1. There is always the possibility of tomorrow. You are not legally or otherwise bound to someone, and if tomorrow while you’re sitting on the subway someone who completely takes your breath away comes and sits next to you, you don’t have to feel guilty about being enamoured. You can even strike up a conversation with this person. You could even date this person. Your next great love could be right around the corner, and you always have that possibility to look forward to.
2. The only person you are responsible for is you. You don’t have to check in with someone if you want to travel or spend an exorbitant amount of money on a gorgeous new floor-length dress from The Loft. Not that I did that yesterday. You don’t have to miss a holiday with your friends and family because you have to go to your significant other’s home. You don’t have to worry about anybody else’s student loans or life plans or goals. A little selfish? Yes. Ideal if you’re someone who wants to be able to pack up your things and travel at your own discretion? Yes.
3. You are free to pursue things that won’t wake up one day and leave you. The thing is, love and companionship are beautiful and wonderful and what most of us would like to settle into eventually. But it’s delusional to think that flawless love and companionship is attainable. It’s not. There will always be struggles, and you have to realize that being completely invested in another person without anything or anybody else in your life is dangerous because that person could leave you one day– and what will you be left with?
4. You can own your independence. You do not have to be married to be a functioning, happy and successful individual. In fact, you don’t have to be in a relationship either! There was once a time when women depended on their husbands to sustain them, and unfortunately, this may be a reality for many women still. However, if you are able to attend school, work for yourself, etc. you are privileged and extraordinary lucky that you don’t have to rely on anyone. Take advantage of that privilege.
5. You can do what you want on the weekends, not shave your legs/face, pig out on chicken wings and watch Netflix by yourself, spend all your time with your best friend and above all else, not have to be the friend that is always talking about leaving the party to get back to your old ball-and-chain. You can, instead, be the friend who was talking about your latest dates, the fantastic lovers you’ve taken, the goals you’ve set for yourself and the goals you’ve accomplished, all while being proud of understanding the role that you want love to play in your life, and maybe the fact that you will not just settle for someone for the sake of having it.
Back to Tucson!
I was lucky enough to get an interview for an internship and I had to come home to Tucson for a week and continue to job hunt here. It’s been fun being back with Marissa and Chelsea at our apartment and in my nice cool room! As familiar as I am with Glendale, Tucson is definitely my second home, and the people I live with are like my second my family.
The day before I got back I discovered that Panera Bread had come to Tucson so obviously that was the first thing we did when I got back into town. It was just as amazing as I remembered it and it’s probably not a good thing that this restaurant is a five minute drive from my apartment (I mean, I could walk there if I had to).
Today I had my interview (eeek!) which I think went pretty well (or at least I got pretty good vibes) and spent the first half of my day preparing for and actually interviewing, and then Marissa and Chelsea and I decided we should drive to the other side of Tucson and go roller skating! It took me less than 10 seconds before I completely fell on my ass, but that’s okay because I didn’t fall again the rest of the time. They played really awful music, which is to say the song choices were random and the “classics” didn’t make up for countless unrecognizable 80s and 90s hip-hop music.
Although I’m extremely tired right now, I’m pretty happy with how the past few days have been and I’m glad I’m here in Tucson for a little bit longer.
One of my favorite quotes of all time.
Instagram Diaries : 05/11/13 - 05/17/13
My blog year post for today goes to an important project that I’ve begun with my roommates, Marissa and Rose, and our old roommate, Morgan. Since Rose has already written out our whole advertisement for the deal, I’ll just put that here considering it’s better written than what I would’ve came up with and it coveys everything I would like to as well.
Hello all! This is the start of an indiegogo fundraiser for some travel. Why, exactly? Well, here is the story: Morgan was our roommate during the Fall 2012 semester when she was studying abroad in Arizona at the University of Arizona. Morgan is from Narnia. I mean, Australia. If you don’t know, we called ourselves and our apartment “TheTumblrBunch”. It was an amazing six months spent together. Morgan brought many things to our lives, including random knowledge about Aussie words and slang, deadly animals and Vegemite (which is really gross), and her warm and bold personality that can come only from the dangerous shores of Australia.
Morgan came to the states in the summer and shortly before school began we all moved into a cozy apartment together. Then the semester began and all four of us became very good friends. I really can’t put into words how much of a friend she became, honestly. When you live with someone, you talk about random things at 2 am in the morning. You have deep, political, religious and emotional conversations about your views – and in the next minute you’re making immature jokes about Captain American’s butt. You see all sides of a person and really get to know them.
It’s been around 5 months since Morgan left and we miss her dearly. Even before she left, Morgan kept telling us that one day, we have to go and visit her in Australia. Which is a no brainer in theory – of course we want to go to Australia and visit her again! But, as college students, it’s not that easy to just want to go. We even entered Ellen Gegeneres’ contest to win a trip to Australia, because it seemed perfect, but alas we didn’t win.
All three of us are saving as much money as we can, but for all of us to go, round trip, is around $8,000. That is, obviously, a lot. More than anything, we want to go visit Morgan for her birthday at the end of December – almost a year since we last saw her. Currently, or goal for this fundraiser is $4,000, due to the fact that it can only last 60 days and that if you don’t make your goal, the website takes 9%. If you make your goal, it’s only 4%. If we don’t meet this first goal, we plan to do another one of these if people are still willing to give.
Now it’s a lot to ask. We’re not expecting anything, really. We just thought we would open this up to everyone here on Tumblr, as well as our own families, because all of us met here on this website for the most part. Morgan messaged us from Australia, for goodness sakes, because she followed Rose here on the site and saw she was going to the same University. The first day we were all in the same room was the day we moved into our apartment together. This is a website that creates strong bonds among its members. It’s amazing to see the help people can do for their friends – or even complete strangers – here. So give a $1. Give $10. Give as much as you are able to, if you so please. We know times are tough, so please, don’t feel obligated if you can’t. Even just reblogging this, if you can’t give anything, means the world to us.
We aren’t some celebrities doing a Kickstarter for a show. We can’t offer you much. But we do have some perks, little things like sending you a postcard from Australia when we get there, souvenirs, and if you are Australian and want to give (really, we don’t expect anyone to give us that much, but the option is there) an invite to Morgan’s birthday party! Even just a $1 will get you a tweet from all of us, thanking you. Because seriously, even a dollar means so much to us. We’re just normal people. We’re friends that just want to see each other again.
It would mean the absolute world to me and my friends if you donated even a dollar to get us to Australia. Thank you so much if you took the time to read all this, and I know a trip to Australia seems arbitrary and silly to some people, but to see Morgan again would be the best gift I could ever receive.
20 Little, Beautiful Things
From my favorite, Thought Catalog.
1. Your favorite jeans.
2. Looking back and understanding why certain things happened the way they did.
3. Your favorite food, delivered to you by surprise by your favorite person.
4. Unprecedented peacefulness.
5. A hot shower.
6. A nap when you desperately need one.
7. Newborn animals.
8. When kids say they love you.
9. Running to greet someone you love at the train station.
10. When your parents tell you that you’ve made them proud, or that you inspire them (my dad actually told me that recently…).
11. Feeling attractive just as you are. Not because you’re dressed or made up a certain way.
12. Comfy clothes, a comfy bed and your favorite movie.
13. When you pay attention to your breathing and you’re able to calm yourself.
14. Swings at playgrounds.
15. The feeling of the sun on your back.
16. When your favorite song from childhood comes on the radio.
17. When a situation you were a mess over solves itself.
18. Books that wrap your mind in the story and the feeling you get after work or school when you realize you can go back to reading again.
19. Realizing how young you are.
20. Realizing how far you’ve come in such little time.
I’m going to admit
that I’m extremely nervous and afraid to go to the dentist tomorrow and get my procedures done.
Every visit I’ve ever had at the dentist has been painful and uncomfortable, and I’m just really not looking forward to the Novocain, numbness, pain, and potential complications that could occur.
I may be turning 20 in a few months but the dentist is one of the things that will always make me uneasy since I’ve had so many bad experiences with every dentist I’ve had. But I’m going to suck it up and put on a brave face because that’s what I do, and I’m lucky at least that it’s nothing worse (for now).